ONLY LOVE CAN "LIFT" THE HEAVIEST OF HEARTS.
When I lost everything---more than nine years ago---I only had one request: God, please end my pain. The depression, overwhelming sadness, and total defeat consumed me. I yearned for death.
But my all-knowing God directed me to read my journals—to re-read the endless pages of handwritten notes I’d been creating since childhood. I began studying how to take those years of writings and “blend” them into a book. Never a quitter, I realized I couldn't leave this earth until I’d finished what I’d started. I got busy writing, editing, condensing, creating---threading my words and thoughts together--- like a tapestry. I didn’t stop until I’d merged all the tragic, good, bad, funny, sad, and heart-breaking moments together—in one bold pattern--- that told my very-emotional story.
At the very-lowest point in my life, God lifted me up. He convinced me I matter; that I’m not a failure. Starved for love and guidance---I listened; I leaned on God’s every word and promised to follow his lead.
Even today when doubt creeps in to make me feel worthless or depressed, I look in the mirror. I lift my head high and speak directly to the person looking back at me: “YOU matter! YOU aren’t a useless person with a bunch of broken pieces. YOU are a completely-whole and wonderful person with a huge heart. YOUR heart is the same heart you’ve always had except sometimes.....YOU share it with the wrong people!”
It’s been nine years. Today, I’m a published author. Each time I open my book to see my father's picture and read my dedication: Roy Behymer (R.B.) Miller-- "The World's Best Locomotive Engineer and The World's Greatest Daddy"--- I smile through happy tears. I am complete; my father loves me. And, I’m confident my father is proud, knowing I've successfully- written my life story.
Yes, God rescued me at my weakest point and made me strong. Today, I understand God’s plan for my life. And---only God will decide when it’s time for my journey to end.
Never doubt God's steadfast love. Today, God is “in charge” of my life and—everyday, hand in hand, we journey-through life…together.
“Oh, how he loves You…… Oh, how he loves Me….Oh, How He Loves You and Me.”