Jan. 11, 2021

THE "VIEW" FROM MY HOSPITAL BED.

I DIDN'T EXPECT A ROYAL SUITE; I HAD NO CONCERN WITH THE ROOM'S DEPRESSING LOOK... BUT DAMN!!!! I WAS PLACED ON THE HEART WING IN A ROOM WITH A STOPPED-UP TOILET! I WAS CONCERNED THERE WAS ONLY ONE WASTE BASKET AND IT WASN'T IN THE BATHROOM OR NEAR MY BED. I COULDN'T BELIEVE THERE WAS NO BEDSIDE TABLE. THE HOSPITAL TRAY (WHERE THE PATIENT'S FOOD IS PLACED) WAS THE "CATCH-ALL" FOR THE ROOM PHONE, MY CELL PHONE, AND HOSPITAL LITERATURE. I QUICKLY OBSERVED THERE WAS NO BIBLE IN THE ROOM AND NO PLACE TO "HIDE" MY PURSE. THE ROOM CLEARLY HAD A DIRTY FLOOR---TO SAY NOTHING ABOUT THE BATHROOM FLOOR, TUB, AND A TOILET...A DISGUSTING, OVERFLOWING TOILET!!! BUT...THIS WAS MY OBSERVATION AND--- MINE ALONE. I NEVER SAID EVEN ONE WORD TO ANYONE! I WAS IN THIS HOSPITAL FOR ONE REASON: TO STOP THE UNCONTROLLABLE BLEEDING AND GET RID OF "THE MONSTER"! I WANTED MY LIFE BACK!



I'M NOT A COMPLAINER. I WAS SCARED TO DEATH THAT I WAS BLEEDING TO DEATH SO MY LIFE WAS AT THE MERCY OF THESE STRANGERS WHO...HOPEFULLY...COULD SOLVE MY VERY-SERIOUS PROBLEM.

THE FEMALE "DOCTOR" WHO CAME TO MY ROOM TUESDAY MORNING TO INTRODUCE HERSELF... WAS "STOUT" WITH A FOREIGN ACCENT. SHE'D NEVER SEEN "THE MONSTER" BUT ASSURED ME...IN HER SHORT SPEECH...THAT SHE WAS IN CHARGE AND I WOULDN'T BE LEAVING "HER" HOSPITAL UNTIL THE BLEEDING HAD STOPPED AND I WAS BACK TO "NORMAL" AGAIN.

THE NEXT DAY--THIS "WARDEN" OF SORTS...HAD CHANGED HER TUNE. NOW SHE THOUGHT I SHOULD CONSIDER LEAVING THE HOSPITAL TO WAIT FOR A BIOPSY THAT COULD TAKE "DAYS" EVEN "WEEKS" . THERE WAS NO REASON FOR ME TO STAY IN THE HOSPITAL WHEN MY ROOM WAS DESPERATELY NEEDED FOR COVID PATIENTS AND, NOT BEING SICK, JUST MADE ME MORE AT RISK FOR CATCHING COVID. CONFUSED...I ASKED WHAT HAD HAPPEN TO CHANGE HER MIND FROM THE DAY BEFORE---AND REPEATED HER WORDS FROM THE DAY BEFORE?!?!? A HOME HEALTH CARE/RN WAS IN MY ROOM AT THE TIME AND...IN RESPONSE TO MY QUESTION... THE FLOOR "DOCTOR" QUICKLY SHOUTED BACK: "I NEVER SAID THAT...SO STOP LYING"!!!!

THE NEXT MORNING WHEN I WAS SCHEDULED FOR SURGERY AT NOON...THIS ATTACK-DOG "DOCTOR" CAME IN MY ROOM---- WHERE A YOUNG BLACK NURSE WAS ENTERING VITAL INFO ON THE STANDING COMPUTER TERMINAL---PUT HER ARM AROUND HER, LOOKED AT ME.... AND SAID " WHEN YOU TOLD ME YESTERDAY THAT YOU HATED BLACKS AND PEOPLE OF COLOR--LIKE ME--I REALIZED YOU ARE A RACIST AND A HATER AND A TROUBLEMAKER..." SHOCKED AND UNPREPARED FOR SUCH AN UNPROFESSIONAL ACT I BEGAN SCREAMING FOR THIS LYING AGITATOR TO LEAVE MY ROOM ....AND BEGAN TRYING TO GET OUT OF BED. JUST ONE HOUR BEFORE FACING SURGERY...I WAS BEING THREATENED-CONFRONTED WITH EVIL AND PURE HATE.

I RELATED THE INCIDENT TO MY SURGEON AND ASKED HER TO PLEASE KEEP THIS EVIL WOMAN FROM GETTING CLOSE TO ME DURING SURGERY AND....AFTERWARDS.

WHEN I WOKE UP AFTER SURGERY, I HAD BEEN RELOCATED TO THE SURGERY FLOOR--- TO A CLEANER AND FULLY-FUNCTIONING ROOM. AND YES--- THERE'S MORE BUT---I WANT YOU TO "DIGEST" THIS SERIOUS INCIDENT BEFORE I SHARE THE NEXT ONE.

FOR YEARS, I'VE BEEN FOLLOWED; MY PHONE AND COMPUTER ARE CONSTANTLY HACKED; AND WHEREVER I GO, WHATEVER I DO...I'M BEING OBSERVED. TRUST ME. EVERYTHING I SAY HAS BEEN DOCUMENTED; I HAVE PROOF.

I LEARNED A LONG TIME AGO THAT TOO-MUCH-TRUST...MAKES ME WEAK AND VULNERABLE. NEVER UNDER-ESTIMATE THE ENEMY.