Aug. 12, 2021

THESE DAYS--TRUST NOTHING, NO ONE-- INCLUDING DOCTORS AND HOSPITALS.

AFTER BECOMING A CHI ST. VINCENT HOSPITAL PATIENT,  I WAS BOMBARDED WITH A STEADY STREAM OF PEOPLE PARADING IN AND OUT OF MY ROOM.  THESE "STAFFERS" NEVER IDENTIFIED THEMSELVES AS THEY PRESSURED ME TO BUY A WALKER, TO SIGN-UP FOR HOME HEALTH CARE, SIGN-UP FOR PHYSICAL THERAPY, SHOW PROOF I COULD WALK FROM THE BED TO THE BATHROOM WITHOUT ASSISTANCE AND-- KEPT-REPEATING--MY NEED  FOR A HEART DOCTOR.  I HAD TO  PROVE I COULD PUT ON MY SHOES WITHOUT ASSISTANCE-- AND SHOW I COULD USE THE BEDSIDE TOILET---WHILE EVERY ONE WATCHED. 

NO ONE SEEMED CONCERNED THAT-- EVERY TIME I STOOD UP--THE MONSTER BETWEEN MY LEGS SPRAYED UNCONTROLLABLE BLEEDING IN ALL DIRECTIONS.

MY HOSPITAL DOOR STAYED OPEN AS "UNMARKED" PEOPLE "CAME AND WENT". MANY KEPT FOCUSING ON MY ANXIETY, MY HEART RATE, MY LOW BLOOD PRESSURE, AND SHAMING ME FOR NOT LISTENING TO THE LARGE BLACK WOMAN WHO IDENTIFIED AS A FAMOUS HEART DOCTOR.  THIS STRANGE-ACTING "DOCTOR" WANDERED--IN AND OUT OF MY ROOM--ALWAYS  ACCOMPANIED BY A SUPER-SIZED BLACK MAN CALLED ----HER "BODYGUARD".

I HAD NO PRIVACY AND NO RELIEF FROM MY FEAR OF BLEEDING TO DEATH.  WORST OF ALL, MY BATHROOM TOILET DIDN'T WORK AND WAS OVERFLOWING----  WHILE MY ONGOING REQUESTS FOR HELP---WERE IGNORED.   I  JUST WANTED TO SCREAM--AND KEEP SCREAMING-- LIKE A TRAPPED ANIMAL.

 I SHOULD NEVER HAVE BEEN PLACED ON THE HOSPITAL'S HEART WING.  I HAVE NO HISTORY OF HEART PROBLEMS OTHER THAN FIFTY YEARS EARLIER...WHEN I EXPERIENCED A RACING PULSE AFTER RECEIVING THE WRONG MEDICATION BEFORE KIDNEY SURGERY!

MY FIRST NIGHT IN THE HOSPITAL...WHEN I WAS HOOKED UP TO AN IV...I ASSUMED IT WAS IN PREPARATION FOR EMERGENCY SURGERY ALTHOUGH I HAD YET TO MEET ANYONE REMOTELY CONNECTED TO SURGERY OR GYNECOLOGY.  I WAS SO ALONE, SO TIRED, SO AFRAID, AND SO OVERWHELMED...I JUST WANTED EVERYONE TO  LEAVE ME ALONE AND LET EVERYTHING BE SIMPLE AND QUIET.

A LITTLE BEFORE MIDNIGHT, TIRED BUT WIDE-AWAKE,  I WATCHED AS AN UNIDENTIFIED WOMAN ENTERED MY ROOM HOLDING A NEEDLE  WHICH SHE INJECTED INTO MY IV.  WHEN I QUESTIONED WHO SHE WAS AND WHAT SHE WAS INJECTING....HER ANSWER WAS: "I'M THE ONE WHO INTENDS TO LOWER YOUR PULSE.  GO TO SLEEP AND STOP WORRYING."

THE NEXT THING I REMEMBER .. PEOPLE WERE CROWDING AROUND ME, ASKING ME QUESTIONS, OVER AND OVER, BUT I COULDN'T SEE AND...I WAS UNABLE TO TALK!  MY MOUTH WOULDN'T WORK.  I COULDN'T SAY ANYTHING AND MY BODY FELT FROZEN, LIKE I WAS PARALYZED. I RECALL HEARING SOMEONE SAY " IF SHE WAKES UP JUST SAY SHE HAD A BAD NIGHTMARE."

I DID WAKE UP--- HOURS LATER, WHEN A YOUNG BLACK GIRL CAME IN MY ROOM, SAYING SHE WAS MY NURSE FOR THE DAY AND...EXCITEDLY...BEGAN TALKING ABOUT HOW I'D BEEN DISCUSSED AT THE MORNING MEETING BECAUSE MY PULSE HAD DROPPED TO 40 -- WHICH ALARMED THE NIGHT CREW.  THEY ALL THOUGHT I MIGHT BE DYING OR GOING INTO CARDIAC ARREST.   SHE SAID THE STAFF DECIDED I'D  HAD SOME KIND OF NIGHTMARE THAT HAD CAUSED MY BODY TO GO INTO SHOCK.

SEVERAL AIDES VISITED MY ROOM LATER THAT MORNING ...COMMENTING ON HOW I'D ALMOST DIED THE NIGHT BEFORE BECAUSE MY BODY WAS SO "STRESSED-OUT".  SEEMS THE FLOOR DOCTOR STATED I SHOULD HAVE TAKEN THE HEART MEDICINE WHEN IT WAS OFFERED ME.

WHEN AN RN...ANOTHER STRANGER...VISITED ME TO DISCUSS THE HOME HEALTH CARE VISITATION PROGRAM AND ASKED HOW SHE COULD HELP ME...I TOLD HER I NEEDED TO KNOW WHAT MY CHART SAID HAD HAPPENED TO ME THE NIGHT BEFORE.  SHE LEFT FOR A FEW MINUTES.  WHEN SHE RETURNED, SHE SAID "SURPRISINGLY, THERE IS NO INFORMATION ON YOUR CHART. I ASKED THE CHART NURSE WHY AND WAS TOLD THERE'S NOTHING TO REPORT. WHEN I ASKED AN AIDE NEARBY IF SHE'D HEARD ANYTHING ABOUT YOUR PULSE DROPPING TO 40...SHE LOOKED SCARED AND SAID NO ONE WAS ALLOWED TO DISCUSS ANYTHING ABOUT YOU WITH ANYONE."

NO.  I DIDN'T HAVE A NIGHTMARE...ANYMORE THAN I "DREAMED" A WOMAN INJECTED SOMETHING INTO MY IV.  I WAS WIDE-AWAKE WHEN I WAS GIVEN AN UNDOCUMENTED INJECTION.  NO ONE AT CHI ST VINCENT HOSPITAL WAS MY PERSONAL DOCTOR AND---NO ONE HAD PERMISSION TO INJECT ME WITH ANYTHING!

I WON'T ELABORATE ON MY EVENTUAL SURGERY OR THE GYNECOLOGIST WHO PERFORMED THE SURGERY . THREE DAYS LATER, I'D REACHED MY LIMIT---I'D HAD ENOUGH.  ULTIMATELY, I FORCED MY OWN RELEASE....BY STANDING IN THE HALL ....SCREAMING. 

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BEFORE SURGERY, TWO DIFFERENT BIOPSIES SHOWED "THE MONSTER" AS BENIGN YET....THREE WEEKS AFTER SURGERY--- AT MY FOLLOW-UP VISIT TO THE SURGEON'S OFFICE---I WAS INFORMED THAT THE TUMOR SHE REMOVED WAS--INDEED-- CANCER.  SHE THEN LAID OUT "THE PLAN" FOR ME TO HAVE MORE RADICAL SURGERY AT UAMS--WHERE SHE HAD STUDIED.  HER PROFESSOR WOULD BE MY SURGEON AND WOULD PERFORM MY COMPLICATED SURGERY IN FRONT OF HIS STUDENTS.  MY SURGERY WOULD ALSO BE TAPED SO  MEDICAL STUDENTS AROUND THE WORLD COULD WATCH THIS "MAESTRO" SURGEON---PRACTICING HIS ART--- AS HE REMOVED MOST OF MY  LYMPH NODES, MY VAGINA, AND THE REST OF MY VULVA.  AFTER  A VERY-BRIEF MEETING WITH THE DOCTOR/PROFESSOR AT UAMS--I HAD NO TROUBLE SAYING: "NO THANK YOU"!!!  

IN JANUARY OF THIS YEAR, I EXPERIENCED A MEDICAL NIGHTMARE STRAIGHT FROM THE TWILIGHT ZONE. I WAS THE VICTIM OF A KILLER-HOSPITAL WITH AN UNTRAINED AND UNPROFESSIONAL  STAFF OF SAVAGES.  AND, I'VE BEEN UNABLE TO FIND AN ATTORNEY TO ADDRESS MY MEDICAL ABUSE. APPARENTLY, I'M TOO OLD--DON'T HAVE MONEY--AND DON'T HAVE FAMILY SO--I'M NOT WORTH WORRYING ABOUT. IT ALSO APPEARS ARKANSAS'S ATTORNEY GENERAL HAS NO INTEREST IN RESEARCHING THE MEDICAL CORRUPTION IN HER STATE.

 WHATEVER HAPPENED TO PROFESSIONAL ETHICS IN AMERICA?!?!?!? WHAT HAS HAPPENED TO AMERICA'S EXCELLENCE IN MEDICINE AND ITS CARING, COMPASSIONATE MEDICAL PROFESSIONALS?!?!?!?  AND FINALLY----WHY ARE SO MANY AMERICANS  AGONIZING OVER THE THREAT THAT SOCIALISM/COMMUNISM  JUST-MIGHT BE INVADING AMERICA?!?!?

WAKE UP, PEOPLE.  WE LOST OUR FREEDOM YEARS AGO. IT'S TIME TO STRAP ON YOUR BULLET-PROOF VESTS, YOUR PROTECTIVE HELMETS, AND TIGHTEN YOUR SAFETY BELTS. YOU NOW LIVE IN THE "NEW AMERICA" ----CONTROLLED BY POLITICIANS AND THEIR NEW WORLD ORDER OF SOCIALISM AND COMMUNISM. BUT...IT'S STILL YOUR MONEY (AND MINE) THAT WILL PAY-THE-BILLS.

Sally Miller