Oct. 28, 2022

GOD GAVE ME LIFE AND---HE WILL DECIDE WHEN MY LIFE ENDS.

 MY LIFE AND MY DEATH...BELONG TO THE MASTER PLANNER.

IN 2011, When I lost everything and everyone---I had only one thought: To end the pain. The depression, the overwhelming sadness, and a feeling of total defeat, consumed me. I yearned for death.

But my all-knowing God directed me to read my many journals--and study the thousands of pages I'd written since childhood.  I soon "lost" myself as I read years of thoughts, dreams, sadness, hopes, and experiences--all written by me and placed in more than a dozen long-saved notebooks. Completely-surrounded by so-many bits and pieces of my life, I recognized the enormous task before me. It was time to merge my  many-years of writing into a Book-- a Book about my very-different, challenging, and difficult life.

Never a quitter, I couldn't think about leaving this earth without finishing what I'd started.  At last, It was time to edit the pages-- blend the many words and thoughts together-- and start writing the story of my life. The tragic, the good and bad, the funny and occasionally-sad facts-- and even the cruel details of my often-heart-breaking experiences--must all be told.

God touched me at my lowest moment. He convinced me I mattered; he assured me I was not a failure. I listened, I leaned on his every word, and I followed his plan.

Each time I began to feel worthless or depressed, I looked in the mirror. I spoke out-loud to the person looking back at me: “ Yes, you matter! You are whole, not thousands of broken pieces, and you are a good person. Your loving heart is still the same heart---you simply- placed it with the wrong people.”

Today, I'm a published author. Each time I open my book, see my father's picture, and read my dedication to "The World's Best Locomotive Engineer and The World's Greatest Daddy"-- I feel complete. I know my father is pleased and proud-- I've shared my story with the world.

Yes, God touched me at my weakest moment and made me strong. I know for certain God has a plan for my life.   God-- alone-- will decide when my journey is over.

As long as God leads the way,  my life stays securely, on-track. It is only by God's Grace and endless love, I will reach my final destination---with a happy heart.

"Oh, How He Loves You--Oh, How He Loves Me--Oh, How He Loves You and Me."


Sally Miller